Blogging

As I've decided to explore yet another new world, not many of my friends know that I'm keeping a blog. Only Li Ren knows it, I guess.

I regard my blog as a sanctuary to express my feelings to another world, the social circle of my oldself.

Many will think that my blog is very long-winded, redundant, no coherency, you cannot blame me for that as I'm brought up in a high-context culture. And I'm proud to be an Asian. The x icon is just a few cm away and you're at anytime welcome to click it. I don't follow English rhetorical rule to express my feelings and I don't need your approval either.

Let's deal with today's topic. Drawing lines was always difficult for me, not knowing where to stop had caused me various problems.

Sometimes, I had tried so hard to avoid something from happening, yet they happened. The fun part is I only realized them when I was overwhelmed with ambiguous feelings.

Not anymore.

"I took the one less traveled by, and that has made all the difference" by Robert Frost.

Well, line drawing includes deduction, anticipation, long term planning, lastly and most importantly, intuition.

I chose selflessness over selfishness.

If the circumstance allows me, I would go all out for it, I will strive for the best, and I will hope for the best.

How unfortunate that world is not always perfect.

Getting over something is quite difficult, it is always difficult. You need to be harsh and mean towards your own feelings. You need to confront your own rebellious feelings. And what you think is always different with how you act.

I wish I could read minds, so that I could understand your thoughts. I do so because I care of you. Yes, you, whomever it may concern. Wonder if you even know what's my blog is.

Time to pack up, and sit for my Bio assessment tomorrow. Good luck to you and me. ^^

你好!

林伯今天心血来朝用华语写,
可不知想写啥!
小弟近日很忙,日行千里,马不停蹄，忘寝废食，忙得不可开交。
就在此停笔。
友，
比利上

The Blind Side

I was watching this movie, Sandra Bullock's Blind Side.
I stopped, and decided to make my blog a blog, to express personal feelings to the public. (err, attention seeker betul, but siapa nak baca your blog?)
I used to keep a diary, but you know, life is hectic as a college student, not even a second should be wasted. (btw, today, i spent 2hours on ipad's games)
Sometimes, i feel that i'm a jerk. Utterly repulsive jerk. Seriously. What to do? Tell me what should i do.
perhaps, everyone has their blind sides, good ones, bad ones.
Being a jerk is my sole bad blind side, but it is the worst one.
I was studying sarcasm yesterday, only I realize my definition of sarcasm is totally opposite with the universally accepted one. I always thought that being sarcastic could bring happiness to others, since for me, I could get over some negative remarks easily. Yet, there is only one Pee Li on earth, it means that only one guy on earth is that insensitive.

The negative effects on teasing and sarcasm reads:
Teasing and sarcasm can be funny, but if they are taken too far or occur too often they can have a number of negative effects. This is because they both prey on peoples' weaknesses, highlighting them for a cheap laugh or just to be mean. This can make people develop insecure attitudes and also make it hard to trust peoples' intentions.

Read more: The Negative Effects of Teasing & Sarcasm | eHow.com http://www.ehow.com/info_8571842_negative-effects-teasing-sarcasm.html#ixzz1mNj2pu4u

On one hand, I made friends around me feel insecure, which I concur to the facts on the web when I put myself on my friends' shoes. On the other hand, I bring happiness to many. As when you spread happiness, you couldn't escape from it too. Yes, I am happy, as always.

But I wasn't. 14 February 2012, I wasn't. It made my day worst when that foreign student who do not value the friendship but certificate spamming my phone. Finally, I learnt to ignore others.

I am who I am. I make no good student; I make no good son; I make no good friend; I make no good junior; I make no good senior; I make no good bf. But my intention is always good. But if this issue is delved deliberately with arguments and facts from all side analysed meticulously, one can come the conclusion that I not a bad one. I fail no paper in studies; I kill no parent; I hurt no friend with bad intention; I cause no expulsion of my senior; I beat no junior; and well, I tarnish no girl's reputation and dignity.

I just want to start again with a clean sheet. But, could I?

I call this clown syndrome.
While bringing others happiness, no one makes you happy. Because everyone is seeking happiness and few offer happiness.

Those who bring sunshine into the lives of others cannot keep it from themselves.

James M. Barrie
Scottish dramatist & novelist (1860 - 1937)

After all J.M. Barrie got this wrong. As it doesn't adhere to Physics law, where light travels in a straight line. Well, if you consider the duality of light, the light waves still moving away from the source. So how in the universe can those who emit be shinned upon? On the surface, that object is lustrous, but internally? It is a mystery unless you unveil it.

Anyway, I find this song awesome!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VXLlYd-e0oE

Little yellow spider, laughing at the snow

Ah, maybe that spider knows something that I don't know

'Cause I'm goddamn cold

p/s: to those who know me, don't tell me if you've read this. Keep it to yourself.

Think.

On Malaysian education: poverty and margnalization

Public

Azly Rahman

Some vital statistics on educational spending in Malaysia vis-a viz marginalization, poverty, and education. Equality for schools? Look at how much is spent on MARA Junior Science Colleges, the elitist Malay schools? How might this relate to the process of social reproduction? Are we creating classes of people with different access and hence a class of the political economic haves and have nots? ......What paradigm of education necessitates the need to see schooling as separate and unequal? How do we reverse this trend of unequal distribution of resources and make intelligence and the nurturing of it be the right of each child, especially those who are disadvantaged economically, regardless of race? Please share this.

One man down!

While reading this, I couldn't help but laugh. I found similarity between this Kim Jong Il regime, Malaysian politics and Singapore's Family business. The only difference among them is how they fared in the past two decades. Worst, bad and good respectively in term of economy and livelihood of their nation.

Kim Jong Ii used his iron fist to run his family business;

Pak Jib utilizes fear, blank cheques and empty promises to make it here

while Lee Ltd. fight for it intellectually by showing exemplary leadership skills.

One with fun election that get unanimous vote for Kim Jong Il to stay in office;

another one with beautiful slogans and excellent rhetoric, elections that allow the losing party to stay in power;

and the last one which doesn't allow opposition to prosper while delivers the outcomes as promised.

December 19, 2011

Kim Jong Il Dead at Age 69

Reclusive North Korean leader died Saturday of a heart attack

Photo: ASSOCIATED PRESS

North Korean leader Kim Jong Il (AP Photo/Korean Central News Agency via Korea News Service) ** JAPAN OUT **

North Korea's official news agency reported Monday that Supreme Leader Kim Jong Il has died at the age of 69.

http://www.voanews.com/english/news/Kim-Jong-Il-Dead-at-Age-69-135842193.html