I was watching this movie, Sandra Bullock's Blind Side.
I stopped, and decided to make my blog a blog, to express personal feelings to the public. (err, attention seeker betul, but siapa nak baca your blog?)
I used to keep a diary, but you know, life is hectic as a college student, not even a second should be wasted. (btw, today, i spent 2hours on ipad's games)
Sometimes, i feel that i'm a jerk. Utterly repulsive jerk. Seriously. What to do? Tell me what should i do.
perhaps, everyone has their blind sides, good ones, bad ones.
Being a jerk is my sole bad blind side, but it is the worst one.
I was studying sarcasm yesterday, only I realize my definition of sarcasm is totally opposite with the universally accepted one. I always thought that being sarcastic could bring happiness to others, since for me, I could get over some negative remarks easily. Yet, there is only one Pee Li on earth, it means that only one guy on earth is that insensitive.
The negative effects on teasing and sarcasm reads:
Teasing and sarcasm can be funny, but if they are taken too far or occur too often they can have a number of negative effects. This is because they both prey on peoples' weaknesses, highlighting them for a cheap laugh or just to be mean. This can make people develop insecure attitudes and also make it hard to trust peoples' intentions.
On one hand, I made friends around me feel insecure, which I concur to the facts on the web when I put myself on my friends' shoes. On the other hand, I bring happiness to many. As when you spread happiness, you couldn't escape from it too. Yes, I am happy, as always.
But I wasn't. 14 February 2012, I wasn't. It made my day worst when that foreign student who do not value the friendship but certificate spamming my phone. Finally, I learnt to ignore others.
I am who I am. I make no good student; I make no good son; I make no good friend; I make no good junior; I make no good senior; I make no good bf. But my intention is always good. But if this issue is delved deliberately with arguments and facts from all side analysed meticulously, one can come the conclusion that I not a bad one. I fail no paper in studies; I kill no parent; I hurt no friend with bad intention; I cause no expulsion of my senior; I beat no junior; and well, I tarnish no girl's reputation and dignity.
I just want to start again with a clean sheet. But, could I?
I call this clown syndrome.
While bringing others happiness, no one makes you happy. Because everyone is seeking happiness and few offer happiness.
- Those who bring sunshine into the lives of others cannot keep it from themselves.
After all J.M. Barrie got this wrong. As it doesn't adhere to Physics law, where light travels in a straight line. Well, if you consider the duality of light, the light waves still moving away from the source. So how in the universe can those who emit be shinned upon? On the surface, that object is lustrous, but internally? It is a mystery unless you unveil it.
Anyway, I find this song awesome!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VXLlYd-e0oE
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